Was the question I was asked as I shared with a woman how I got drunk for the first time at 15… My reply, “no I was, raised in Christian home”. “Then why did you do it?” was the follow up question… For a second the shame of my past started to suffocate me… Then I remembered it was finished at the cross…

Well…. I replied, ” I am a sinner. saved by grace… I was looking for validation… I wanted someone to just see me… I loved Jesus but my actions were not one of love for Jesus but love for self.. But God…

Fellow brothers and sisters in Christ let’s not lead with these types of questions… These questions made me almost forget what Jesus said on the cross “it is finished”… Ya’ll Christ finished it… My past is something that helped me fall even more in love with Jesus.

My poor decisions when I was young is what makes me so PASSIONATE about teaching the next generation may know the goodness of God… God is the God who give us rules and free will… This is why I look at my own daughters in the eyes and say hey this is what I did and I wish I would of truly believed what God said about me then and now…

I realize that through my past is what makes my present a testimony… maybe the question we should be leading with is, “tell me how God used that night to bring you where you are today…” Friends keep pressing forward… Keep being a light in the darkness… Keep listening to Jesus’ words on the cross “It is finished”